It's been a while

Apparently I don't have the dedication to do a regular blog, but since this is for my sole benefit, what the heck. Another entry...

I've snapped out of this pretty fast. I think this was brought on by an undertreated thyroid (I'm hypothyroid), a nasty sinus infection, and - perhaps most of all - sheer exhaustion. I moved long distance for a job a couple of years ago, hit the ground running, and haven't stopped to catch my breath. Lucky I didn't wind up in the hospital.

So, things are much, much better now. Whew. Having been through depression before, I am amazed how quickly I got past this one. Not that my life hasn't taken (another) hit. Not that I don't have to put the pieces back together again.

Being here makes you think long-term about your life. Why you're not where you want to be, how you are where you want to be, where you want to be in the future, etc. You start thinking about the things that so wounded you, and the things that made you happy. I've come to a couple of conclusions:

1. Just because you love someone doesn't mean they deserve your love. And you deserve someone worthy of your love. So do I.

2. The person formerly known as "The One" was not all that person was cracked up to be.

3. Exterior images are largely false in our society.

4. There is a different way of living that is slower, uses less materials and energy, but is so much more productive. Those of us who are not manic are generally happier that way. Remember, life is a journey, not a destination? Or, the journey is the destination. So why do we keep trying to skip it while we create this image of a life we were supposed to live. There's no such thing. Life is an adventure. As it should be.

Ok, enough for now. Maybe I'll remember to update this in a month. Happy New Year to you. I'm optimistic about this one.